Friday, October 22, 2010

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I am a november ! (:

Hm. kajian mengenai bulan dan sikap, yang telah dijalankan oleh Yang Berbahagia Dato' Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah.
Betul ke? entah. depends :)

Sifat Bulan Lahir untuk bulan November ialah: 
[][] Banyak idea dalam perkara.
[][] Sukar untuk dimengertikan atau difahami sikapnya.
[][] Berfikiran kehadapan.
[][] Berfikiran unik dan bijak.
[][] Penuh dengan idea-idea baru yang luarbiasa.
[][] Pemikiran yang tajam.
[][] Daya firasat yang sangat halus dan tinggi.
[][] Sesuai jadi seorang doktor.
[][] Cermat dan teliti.
[][] Personaliti yang dinamik.
[][] Sifat yang berahsia, pandai mencungkil dan mencari rahsia.
[][] Banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra.
[][] Berani, pemurah setia dan banyak kesabaran.
[][] Terlalu degil dan keras hati.
[][] Apabila berkehendak sesuatu, akan diusahakan sehingga berjaya.
[][] Tak suka marah kecuali digugat.
[][] Mudah ambil berat terhadap orang lain.
[][] Pandai muhasabah diri.
[][] Cara berfikir yang lain dari orang lain.
[][] Otak yang sangat tajam.
[][] Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
[][] Tidak hargai pujian.
[][] Kekuatan semangat dan daya juang yang sangat tinggi apabila berkehendak sesuatu.
[][] Cuba sampai berjaya.
[][] Badan yang sasa.
[][] Kasih sayang dan emosi yang sangat mendalam dan romantik.
[][] Tidak pasti dengan hubungan kasih sayang.
[][] Suka duduk d irumah.
[][] Sangat rajin dan berkemampuan tinggi.
[][] Amanah, jujur, setia dan pandai berahsia.
[][] Tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi.
[][] Bercita-cita tinggi.
[][] Perangai tidak dapat diramal dan mudah berubah-ubah.




Sunday, October 17, 2010

Clueless.

Very much in the mood right now for movies . =)
- Red Eye
- Ip Man
- District 9
- 14 blades
- The Blind Side
- Shrek 4
- Step Up 3
- Muzika n Jgn pndg belakang congkak 2

Selesai!  tapi sekarang mood dah habis sebenarnye . penat pulak mata. hehe. tapi nanti bila2 nak tgk going the distance , life as we know it ,and eat love pray. Yep these 3 movies. my kind of movies. macam best :)  btw today, sigh...i checked and i gained some weight, erm tak terkejut pun. ish ish.  then baca la newspaper,  ada la satu artikel tentang persepsi manusia. the topic which recently alby and i were having conversation about. hm very interesting act. Tajuknya, apabila persepsi tentukan keputusan. Hm mcm ni la sedikit petikan dlm artikel tu. saja berkongsi.

Manusia tidak berupaya untuk mengetahui atau memahami semua perkara secara mendalam atau selengkapnya. Apa yang dapat dilakukan hanyalah mengetahui atau memahami sesuatu perkara tertentu saja yg benar2 dialami dan ditelitinya sendiri. Sungguhpun dengan kesedaran tentang kurangnya kemampuan untuk mengetahui semua perkara , manusia tetap mahu memegang sesuatu kepercayaan walaupun ia tidak mempunyai asas yang kukuh.   Kecenderungan untuk percaya kepada sesuatu perkara yang kurang bersasas mungkin didorong oleh keperluan. Dlm kehidupan seharian , pelbagai keputusan perlu dibuat sedangkan fakta tidak mampu untuk dihimpun atau dikaji kesahihannya. Maka muncullah apa yg disebut sbgi persepsi.  Justeru ,manusia hidup dalam persepsi.   Kebetulan jika persepsi lahir daripada keadaan sebenar , maka keputusan daripadanya adalah betul . Tetapi jika sebaliknya, maka persepsi mendatangkan hasil yg tidak tepat.  Semua orang membuat keputusan setiap hari untuk menjalani kehidupannya. Maka byklah keputusan itu dibuat berdasarkan persepsi. Justeru , jika persepsi itu berasaskan fakta dgn rumusan logik yang betul ,maka keputusan adlh berkualiti , begitu lah juga sebaliknya.

kan..semua orang membuat keputusan berdasarkan persepsi masing2 dlm kehidupan. Tgklah apa yg mempengaruhi persepsi itu. Sama ada keperluan sendiri ,emosi atau apabila kita mengetahui keadaan yg sebenar,[ keadaan terbaik(sgt)]  Kdg2  persepsi kita betul , kdg2 kita salah. hm macam , Dont jugde a book by its cover. discover the whole book first, and dont move to jugdment quickly.  lebih kurang. So nvmd, just sharing this one thing. but open ur mind, do think about it.. and make the best perception. Heee 

Ok camtula. haha tiba2 je  :D

aa sgt bosanla. now feeling a litle lonely too maybe. I miss him I miss my friends :( a lot. I want to talk with them. so badlyyy .im getting bored with all the technology .. I wanna go back to nature. Haha?  Oh, result sem 1 esok kot atau selasa, Ya Allah, risau jugak . harap2 dapat apa yg dihajat. InsyaAllah. just pray for the best and tawakal jelah kan. Huhu. Well mm,  i just have another week at home, but.. i dont feel like going back to uia yet. no not yet. Eee kenape. this mixed feeling ,hm whatever is this feeling is.  Hm normal feeling of inferiority, kot ?  yeah maybe. Im playing with emotions right now, but i shouldnt. but..see. i dont know.  SELF-encouraging is very unlikely to help me right now.   I need..Anyone please tell me and comfort me that everything is going to be alright

Monday, October 11, 2010

I just love weekends. =)

McD bigapple tutifruitti friends. awesome2. finally dapat gak release the boredom-ness out of me. aah finally, out of home . Jumpe khalida n the boys. Hee.  great one. Ah now i really miss you  :) so  sekrang  , im in charge balik untuk house cleaning service kat rumah la. Aa 2 minggu lagi sebelum start sem 2. ahad minggu depan. Going back on 24th. Mamal cuti 26th. Iz pun lebih kurang. kenape la. Sobsob. bila boleh jumpe ni. I miss them. :(

Friday, October 08, 2010

Lack of goodnight sleep :(

Helo. I woke up quite late today.dgn lemah dan perut yg sakit :( tak lrt dan pening2 kepala.wasnt feeling very well. biaselah awal2 ni , prempuan tahu la kenape. hehe. tapi yg ni agak teruk jugak.even semalam try tido awal dalam pukul 11, sbb da rase ngantuk dan xlrt. Aisyah pun kena tido awal. Aisyah da dua hari nak tido sekali, haha sibuk je budak kecik ni .so kena tutup lampu awal dahla. tapi , susaah nak tido. pkul 1 bangun. then try tido, pkul 2 lebih bangun, pukul 3 lebih, 4 lebih then terus tak bole tido. tak selesa tapi tak lrt jugak. tak bole tido ,baring2 jelah , online kat phone kejap.bangun sampai subuh. Huarghh, mata dah berat sgt . Tapi lepas tu ,try and tido balik. tbgun lagi pkul 8, tak lrt nak bangun, rase nak tido jugak. smpi la 10 pagi. Feeling much better now,alhamdulillah. :D then terus mandi , settle kms rumah , breakfast makan roti lagi.. then rehat ,tgk tv.takde best pun, movie sume cite seram2 yg xbes. tgk rookie's blue, tgk garfield, then tgk Just for laughs.yg ni best. niceeee, kelakar. :D
Em...few weeks ni duduk rumah , tak kuar mana2 pun. rasa boleh pass dah ni jadi suri rumah.jadi suri rumah yg educated kan. Haha. So,another 2 weeks. Sobs sobs, what a life.. nevermind. Nanti sure bila masuk balik study,complain pulak tak cukup cuti. So, takmau cakap pape dah. moh rest sebulan. blogging all the way yeah! nanti malas nak update dah.Bye. :D

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Izhana Idrus .selamat hari jadi :)

Happy birthday Izhana! 18 tahun dah. yey, Best of wishes to you . May Allah bless u always dear. Rindu rindu dan rindu. :)
Akhirnyeee yey, dapat borak lama2 sikit tadi.  err mcm biasa kan,  merepek banyak. Haha. tak bole nak stop gelak. sbb dia pun gelak so mesti tergelak jugak.
Plus nadiah,shiro,fifah jadi background music di belakang.likeee it. To Alby, dorang kem salam. :D 
Tadi..Bile call2 dengan dorang sume tibe2 teringat zaman sekolah balik. memang best. Waaa, mcm nak pergi kulim sekarang.
Nadiah cakap die rindu wawa la. Aw comel  . I miss all of you! 
To izhana , kuatkan smgt kat sana, xpela sket lagi je ,takmau tension. yess izhana sure boleh . goodluck ok final exam. Friends forever :)

Now I know. I am truly sorry.

 You guys are the best parents ,alhamdulillah.Im blessed. Yess i absolutely dont learn it from you..and I know you guys are just worried, living in this big world, all of us are exposed, if i am to be a mother one day,i will feel the same. but i really do mistakes,sumtimes when  i am mad,and got nobody to tell at that moment, i cant hold it inside anymore ,got mad and got carried away.eventhough for me , it was just a word, i was wondering for a day why were u guys so upset about , but now i know. even if it's just a word, it is still not a good one. but  i hope u will understand that at my age, i admit, i am not matured enough.and when we talk about emotions, it's something that we can control , but sometimes we just cant.  hm  i always respect both of you and always need your guidance. i make mistakes in life but i can learn,n thank you for always correcting me. But please dont be worry, i want you guys to believe in me,please do , that i will be fine, and that i do always try my best to be a good daughter and good muslim. that's why i will always try to do good in my studies for i know that's what i can do most now for you, I will listen and do whatever you say.sometimes yes i become stubborn, having moodswings ke,sorry. but I try and will keep trying.And i just wish u to know that my friends.. i learned a lot about life from them all, and they're very nice people. it will be very sad without them. yes i have many kind of friends,but i know to pick whats right and wrong . trust me.  I believe in strong friendships.but.. i know you are ok with it, but you r worried of it.
Hm why am i telling all this..because i know at first, i have my own perception,you have your own.so i just want to make it clear.I just want you to know, I always try my best to be a better person,i honestly dont intend to be rude at all. and im not easily influenced with bad manners,thats what i am sure of myself, i know how to think ,and i understand now why you guys are so upset.. Im truly very sorry. I thought all this for the whole yesterdayy. my friend do help me a lot with this,advice me a lot.i learned to understand why and let down my ego and now i have no problem to accept that i am wrong,you both know what's best for me.

err i write this bcos i come to know that you will read this some time later,huhu. and bcos im good at writing my thoughts or my feelings, not really by talking..
  but i will come to have a decent talk,and explain .communication through this is no good at all, i will want to talk to both of you . love u guys

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Facebook ? harsh.

REALLY, dont talk personal life or express your feelings on facebook. Ok i admit , i mess up and u wont like it. it's a common harsh word  where we heard from movies or watever, dont blame anyone, i just know it myself. and to use it? i just posted it ONCE, and the 'D*m*' word,was just a word. because i was really mad to someone, i guess that time how am i gonna let out my feelings in this kind of situation, in home where i got nobody to tell. maybe you wont understand ,you wont accept. i have my limit sometimes, i can be patient too but i do have my own limits, and i was really frustated with someone, and ding,yes my bad, my wrong,and i truly admit.who will like it? i got carried away and posted the word. Everybody does get carried away with feelings,you all do too. I am not an angel. and i dont necessarily learn it from my friends .seriously. my friends are my friends. i cant help it, just dont blame them.

Im sorry mother and father. I accept that, and now I'd rather to remain silent. I am truly sorry.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Cerita Hari Ini.

Bangun . Tgk phone, finally ada message pun .tapi big sigh, kecewa, sy tertidur lagi. terus pegi toilet ,ambil wuduk. pastu .berhenti. pergi depan , tgk jam , ehh baru pukul 5. Cehh =_= "
   Tidur balik. bangun 6.30 ,solat subuh.minum air , tido balik. terbgn lagi ,tgk family sudah pergi kerja dan sekolah ,pegi toilet ,minum air, tido balik. 8 lebih bgn balik. terus mandi , kemas rumah sket. tgk tv,movie grey garden, sambil makan betik. habis dah , online , rasa bosan .tibe2 teringat yakitate japan. story pasal bakery, klakar! haha. so ,bukak youtube, stream online ,tgk lah. pastu lapar , terus makan mee kari. hmm ptg, ummi balik dgn makanan2 dari jamuan guru kat sekolah. makan sikit lg,popiaaa ade,cucur ade. hehe. thenn, ptg fb , anime, pstu tiba2 rasa nak blogging. but for real, im just waiting. when will you have more time. it has been awhile though. and i am missing you.
   

Friday, August 20, 2010

HOME HOME HOME

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Monday, May 17, 2010

I guess through time, Im maturing.

i make mistakes. i did silly things .  sometimes i am not aware of it. sometimes i am aware . sometimes i know. sometimes i dont know.  sometimes, i remember. sometimes, i just forgot .  i lost , i find ,i found. maybe i will lose it again. maybe i will find and found it again.  i do things. i make choices.sometimes  i am happy. i am also sad . i have my past , bittersweet. i have no idea of my future though.  i should not blame my pasts . yes, i make mistakes. i also did right things. hey me, dont feel bad. move on. hey me , life has its up and down. hey me , listen. getting lost along ur path is a part of  finding the path you're meant to be on. hey me ,wise up and live.
but all in all, Im enough . thank you Allah.  :D

yosh yosh ! woh really,im writing and feeeeling better! hahahhaha. 

Monday, May 10, 2010

hihi. while eating the yummy brownies.. :)

hiiii. selamat pagi! hah, im awake n fully rested n hungry , still havent taken my shower ,tak sidai baju lagi,  now lepak2 while eating the yummy brownies.. malas nye saya hari ni, kan kan ? ish ish . :))
fuh! penat gila ni semalam ,balik rumah dalam 9 camtu , mandi dan terus nak tidur. tapi tapi..ada orang kejut suruh tgk bola . hee . terima kasih awak! lambat pun takpe la. kalau la miss game2 last musim ni , sedihnyaa!  buka tv tgk woah chelsea , da 6-0 ? (8-0 FT) pergh . champion sudah. manu mmg tak de can . hehe nice la camtu . musim depan , it's Arsenal's, i just know! hmmm lepas tu terus tertidur dan otp skjap lepas subuh.tapi haihh ,rasa wawa cakap pun mcm ape je kan,smpi last2 dia pun tertidur. hehe sokayla. hmm but sorry  dear.mmg x larat la. huhu. -_-
ey, 2 days kat kampung !! fuh , all day work . takde relek2  kalau kenduri. tapi seronoook, tolong2 ramai2 .suke la kampung style punya,baru best ;)) tapi  mcm balik raya pulak . hmm hiris2 bwg ,halia dan yey akhirnya sabtu mlm wan bagi tolong buat kuih koci.sllu wan mana bg usik2 ,weee bukan senang nak dapat green light! dah lama rase cam nak try ,sbb kuih koci comel la. lepas tu dlm midnite, terus masuk nak tidur tpi x dpt tidur .just missing sumone badly.  :(
 esok pagi lepas subuh, terus mandi . baru nak rehat skjap, terus kena panggil ,anak2 dara mari sini tlg2. hahaha okay ler. takpe lah, its time to sweat! woowoo satu benda la, excited sies tak penah potong labu . makan tahu la kan .ehehe. pastu mcm2 lagi . poning  kepala den. kjap kena pggil sini ,kena pggil sana.  keje ,bfast ,keje ,mkn kenduri, keje smpi dah kemas2 . wah puas hati !!  :))


hmmm dah lama x buat new post kat blog ini. bukan bloggers sejati la saye kan . hhehhe.  pagi  ni 10 mei. izhana , mamal dan fatin dan kwn2 lain . ramai dah pegi matrik masing2. honestly i wish they will do their very best . Use this one year wisely. korang pasti boleh!  semoga ktorang akan sllu keep in touch .i love my friends..really do.. 
hmm life.. we're getting older eh. am i really? are you really? well alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah. we r now  still enjoying the miracle to still living in this world. hmm life..wah, im going to a new phase ,where i've passed the in the mother's womb phase,the baby phase , the tadika phase , the sek rendah phase , the sek men phase, and now getting into a new upgraded level , the uni phase . insyaAllah.  as i ( + you too ) are growing up older, we must to know that our responsibilities as a leader in ourself, as a daughther or son , as a muslim , as a friend ,as a student and as a part of the communities ,the responsibilities r getting bigger and broader. face it and get matured! wait wait..it is great rite ? jgn rasa susah pun. mungkin kedengaran sebegitu kan, tapi takde lah. wei , just enjoy the life ,share the life , and love the life. all in all , life is great !

whew, tak sangka kot dah nak masuk universiti..pening2 nak masuk mana ,matrik ke universiti islam antarabangsa ? iskk those few days..huu im suffered inside .hahaha mcm terover pulak.  tapi alhamdulillah! dapat dua offer ni pun kre okla. ttpi dilema menghantui ,bila uia ni dapat asasi pergigian .  Okay. mmg buat pun 1st choice dlm tawaran tu. tapi .. bila dah dapat. rasa mcm menyesal pulak. i dun think i'll enjoy it. tapi last2 , hmm saya tahu sbgi seorang insan yg lemah, i need help. thank you so much alby. u always make things to look clearer and easier for me ,thanks for hearing. :) dan thanks to laila dan bro azizi yg bg info tu , bila tahu dekat uia selalunya boleh nanti tukar asasi perubatan. i'll take the risk !  ++ waiting for jpa result (aus aus uk ireland )! hehe. amin. hmm.sekarang mmg clear,tamau lain other than perubatan..law,engineering,accounting, nooo x boleh .. i know myself.. ikut minat org la kan . im not choosing medic sbb ini kos famous la bg bdak2 straight. atau gaji power la (mmg taaak! serius weh, nak gaji lebih ,baik pegi bidang engineering atau bussiness.) . it's purely because I WANT TO.
hmmph. orang cakap medic sgt tough , medic sgt busy , medic sgt pening ,medic is a serious career. which makes me to have the second thoughts! ye laah sape nak kan life camtu. tapi itu for those yg ade mindset sebegitu. and i choose not to think like those people . i choose not to live like those people. i choose to live the way i want to. ye, nanti orang cakap ,wei cakap senang lah. yes , i can . i will live the way i want to. all is fine ,all is good ,all is easy ,all is fun ,all is good!
amin.. :)

hmm sekarang everyone is moving on with their life. wah. seronok dgr sume kwn2 ramai gak dapat offer,ada gak yg x dapat.tapi takpe lah, live on rite. hmm awal2 dapat tu ,tgk2 kat fbook ,sume macam dalam dilema ,matrik ke upu ?! ahahaha. same la di sini.  mcm...dilema..road not taken ^^  alby massauddi , asasi kejuruteraan kimia di puncak alam ,shah alam . all the best ok for this one year.lepas tu ,mesti boleh masuk UM . insyaAllah. use this one year sebaik mungkin. i trust you n pray the best for u  ,mesti mesti mesti bolehnye .amin. Never Give Up. i love u much much. :)))
amalia faqihah n elinaz ,buat dip dekat uitm n9. afzal kat uitm gak. putri pun . korang pun study elk2. thanks jd member2 plg setia lah. sayang kome :D
izhana idrus ,akmal syahirah , laila , hmmm dan ramai lagi. jom fight3! love u guys. keep in touch!  owh...rindu nyee ! . kte study la mana2 pun , yg penting be strong ,jgn sombong ,n kuatkan diri . fizikal ,emosi,mental , spiritual , HAHA OK2. byeee2.   :)

Monday, January 25, 2010

day by day ~

Slm. :)
hmm lame da tidak memblogging.
 hri ni sje maw timbg berat.hee. losing about 6 kg.
what about dat   ~
yey ~


hmm u know what . sometimes rase mcm nak menjerit je . because kdg2 i know i wanna let out something
but i dont know how. that's something that i lack of .i never be clear of what exactly is it in my heart.kdg2 i felt something bad or im feeling sad .i know it why but i just dont know how to let it out by words.
huurm sometimes rse bengang jgak ngan dri sendiri. i seriously want somebody to listen up to me.
but then i couldnt let it out .  knapa .? aargh.
hurmm but i guess if it something yg boleh di overcome kan. i'll try to look at the positive way. i know that my prob isnt dat big compare to others. but really lah. sometimes i wanna to tell about it .about what i feel.yes i love to be the universal listener to my friend. it's good to know that dorg cari kite bla ade prob. but why i cant be the one who will tell.
serius lah. im not someone yg akan pendam2 perasaan apa2. tpi sometimes it's hard to face it alone . 
sometimes people tend to look at me as a person who always get calm bla ade ape2 prob. but sometimes really lah act i could not handle everything alone.but blaaah doesnt matter.
kdg2 rsa sedih ngan dri sendiri.hurmm . fhm x.
tahla . i dont know if anyone really understand myself.
whatever lah.

oklah.hmmm im missing someone today. heee :)